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Become big
Become as big as you need to be
as big as you can
You will never be too big
too much

Light yourself on fire
Don’t worry about the flames
the burning or the ash
Don’t worry about being too hot
or burning out
Ignore the smoke alarms
Ignore the paramedics when they come

Become everything you want to be
even when you have no idea who that is
If you don’t like what someone tells you about yourself
Don’t believe it
If someone tells you that you know what you want
and you don’t think you do
Don’t believe them
And keep trying to figure it out yourself

Don’t be too proud
Don’t forget to be grateful
Don’t forget to appreciate the good ones
Let them inspire you

Don't believe what you've always believed about love

Keep your word
Do as you say
Follow through with your actions
Words are lovely
but you need to show
that you mean what they say

Be unapologetic
I think that is one of my favourite words
Do it unapologetically
Be unapologetically yourself
Own the voice cracks
wear them like scars
you are only breaking open your beauty
They imply openness
courageousness

Don’t be afraid of yourself

Don’t shrink
Don’t stop growing
Not for anyone

At the end of the day
a fear of being too much
is really just a fear of being not enough
A fear of being too much
is just doing every desperate thing you can
in hopes you don’t have to experience
what it would be like to be not enough
See what I mean now
they are the same

This was a letter to you
until I realized it was also a letter to me
We are so different
until we are so similar

7 seconds goes by in a blink
and I say something to explain so you don't have to worry
I'm drinking water like it's going to stop me
from waking up with a hangover heart

The heavy fog sits on the bridge of your nose
and the back of your hand is pressed against my cheek
I'm looking up into your eyes between kisses and I'm seeing unfamiliarity
I know it’s you but it's still enough to make me look again

I've tried to write this poem 7 different ways and it will never be enough
I've even tried to not write it
but that doesn't work either
So the best I can do is this:

The universe hands me a diner mint from the pocket of my coat
and it tastes different
The kind of different that surprises you
The kind that tastes like your lips in a parking lot at 2am

I run my finger across the condensation on the inside of the car window
and I’m afraid I’ll tear the centre console from your mother’s car
Just to get to the heart of you
Droplets of rain sit on the outside of the glass and I want to drink them in
I want to wear them like crystals in my hair

There might be more oxygen among the blinking lights and falling coins
but I’m fairly certain you are the only reason I’m breathing easier

It's diner mint different
and I'm convinced I could live off this
I'm convinced if I hold tight enough
your arms will come searching for my hands
because they don't want to walk across the asphalt of life without them

Because every parking lot you walk through without my hands
will make your arms ache
Every casino you visit you’ll imagine looking up
and seeing me across the room next to the penny slots
Every headlight shone on a rainy windshield
you'll see a flash of me in the passenger seat with my boots off

Don't think you shoulder this alone
While this is happening to you
Know that I won't be able to get on a highway ramp
without seeing your goodbye arm out the window

My pockets will be full of empty diner mint wrappers until I see you again